Confession

I've been thinking about how G-d is like a computer programmer and we are in a simulation of His recently. Especially the part where He has the ability to provide anything he wants to us. I have realized that I do not act like it sometimes though.

I have been having a poverty mentality. I have been acting like I don't have the resources I need. I have been selfish in both attitude and action. But what justification do I have for that? How does that line up with reality? G-d loves me. He has a purpose for me. So given that He has literally unlimited resources and He wants to see me succeed I really shouldn't be concerned about resources at all. He kind of lays that out in Matthew 6:25-34.

I basically write on a topic that I have been thinking a bit about that day, and the reason this is a thing is, like I said, I wasn't doing this. I "know" the stuff, but "knowing" doesn't translate to knowing a lot of times. But then over the past couple weeks we wanted to do something. It wasn't huge, but we didn't have the money to pay for all the stuff we needed to do it. Then out of the blue resources appeared. Things that were not on our radar at all, that we couldn't have planned. And BAM. We had everything we needed to do it. Not any more, but enough.

It really helped me understand in a fresh way (I've learned this before unfortunately) that worrying about resources is not going to help things. G-d can and will sudo provide what I need.